well..

back to college today..

the stress is never reduce..

done my english assignment by myself at the new year holiday..

today present it with my group members..

i feel glad on my work actually..

but after the presentation..

suddenly feel so unsatisfied..what i did is not accurate to what lecturer want..

just finish the english assignment..another general studies assignment is coming..

arghhh..how can i overcome these..

totally donnoe how to manage my time n stress..

haizzzzzzzz..

很想你..

一天不知道哭了几次..

还边开车边哭..

可不可以不要不理我..

对不起..

我真的不想放弃你...

helpless..

first time write 3 post within 1 day..

feel so helpless and useless..

cant believe that everything is gone..

argue? haizzz..

how good if all of this just a nightmare..

wish i can wake up and back to your side..

dont know why..our relationship become like this..

i try to explain but all is just become misunderstanding..

would be any wrong on my explaination..?

会不会是我说错话了..

你才会误解我的意思..

我知道..我很笨..

常常做一些事来惹你生气..

是我还长不大吧..

有些事在我的角度来看是没什么..

可是我却没有站在你的立场想..

太自私了吧..

今天不知道哭了多少次..

一直骂自己..还拿自己的胃来赌气..不吃饭..

只靠药来止痛..让你知道了你会更不想理我吧..

听我说..

我真的没有要玩你的意思..

我玩不起..

或许你不会原谅我了吧..

but what i want to say is..i am still love you..i swear..

快消失吧..

除了哭..什么都不会了..
真希望..能够快点消失在这个世界上..
只会伤害人..什么都不会..
以前是这样..现在也是这样..
一切都是我自己的问题..
是我不会表达我想说的意思吗..
还是我就真的那么笨..笨到我爱的人都讨厌我吗..
又来了..
我又伤害了我很爱很爱的人..
怎么会这样呢..
我做了什么..
还是我没做什么?
一切的解释都变得毫无意义..
我到底该怎么做..
我不听话吗..
我很坏吗..
为什么每次都这样..
让我消失好不好..

Stressful New Year..

well..this year Chinese New Year really no have so much mood to celebrate..because of the stress of studies perhaps..need to done few tests..assignments and a project within 2-3 months..even thought only 3 subjects in this Sem but its so damn stressful..CNY holiday also need to finish the English assignment..suppose should be 4 ppl in a group but i done it myself..>< then the Management assignment n General Studies project need to pass up by 17th Feb..wonder can i done all these studies well or not..omgggg..

back to new year..oh yea i went to his house for lunch at the 2nd day of new year..hmm honestly firstly when i just get prepare to his house my feel was like so excited..donnoe why..ask my mom to dry my hair somemore..=X err..okie..but when i reached his house and i found..wow..totally cant join to his friends conversation..hmm luckily Brandon n Edwin there so still hv talk a little bit..quite disappointed that he looks like don want chap me..so sad..=X well..i know he need to accompany his friends but at least just talk with me marr..then when they go the other friend house by 2pm..i decide to back home 1st..err..well that time im think like back home alone might be better than stay there being quiet..hmm but its feel grad when he come my house accompany me at night..sweet..=)